I miss writing.
I miss sharing my soul with you.
I'm not really sure why I stopped.
Maybe I stopped because I wasn't making progress with my weight loss as rapidly any longer.
Partly I think I stopped because we went though a season of intense busyness.
But, mostly I think I stopped because being vulnerable, so intensely vulnerable is uncomfortable. Seriously uncomfortable.
I love being real. I like not having to hide the real me. But, so many of the changes in my life are so deep that I wasn't sure I could let everyone in on them.
All I know is that tonight, I saw a link to my blog on my twitter page....and I couldn't help but click it. And then I got the twinge and the next thing you know, there are words on the page, helping me get started saying things that I've been meaning to say for 4 long months now.
We've been changing at the Humes' household. This summer took us on the most amazing and wonderful adventure of hosting a foreign exchange student. Her name is Elena. August 2012 was such an amazing month for us...Elena will forever be a part of our family, part of our joy, and part of our world. I can't wait to see her again.
Because our experience with Elena went so well, we decided that we love opening up our home so much that we would begin pursuing it in other ways. For us, that meant picking up the phone and dialing a local foster care agency. We are now pretty much ready to go with that and for now we wait anxiously for our first placement. We eventually hope to adopt from the foster care system. Because of the strict confidentiality of the foster care system and our protection and the protection of the children in our home, that is one subject I will never be able to write about. Those are just things I'll have to ponder in my own heart.
This has been a year of slow but steady spiritual growth for me. I have been studying 1 and 2 Samuel with my Wednesday morning Bible study. I can't believe the things I can learn from the Old Testament to apply to my modern day life.
As I mentioned before, my weight loss has kind of stalled out, which to be quite honest, really bums me out. I'm not sure what to do with myself. I know that with my sweet husband, my amazing kids, and whatever blessings God brings to us through foster care or adoption, I have a lot on my plate. And I know the old oxygen mask adage that in order to care for others you have to care for yourself first. But, I'm kind of at a loss of the next step. Although, it was kind of funny...today I emailed my friend Mary Beth asking her to pray about a speaking engagement tomorrow...that I could share the heart of Christ through it. Instead of her getting that email, she received an email about a fast I did back in June. I wonder if that is a sign?
See, already, just writing about it, makes me want to feel motivated. Why? Oh why? I should have never waited this long just to share a little about life and wanting to be better...not just to simply be better, but to make myself healthier so I can enjoy life more. I will think about this and process this, and commit myself to writing about a few goals later on this week. Those baby steps can really bring it back for me!
So, how about you friends? How are your goals coming? How's your walk with the Lord? How can I pray for you?
Looking forward to rekindling our writer/reader relationship!